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Mission and Purpose

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Over the years I have done a lot of thinking and praying about my mission and purpose in life. I have even written and article and recorded a podcast about it (see below)… But it is interesting that even since recording that podcast last spring (even though it just came out early this September), it is interesting to reflect on how that has changed or shifted, ever so slightly yet significantly in the past six months…

This summer I had the wonderful opportunity to work with over 100 children and young people both at a summer camp in the US and on a service trip to Costa Rica. While serving as a Christian Science Practitioner and support healing in both venues, I discovered that my greatest calling within that space is to help people, especially young people, know that they are loved by Love and worthy of love. That God’s love for each one of us is unconditional… God’s grace is that unmerited, unearned outpouring of love to us each and every moment. And that it is for us to realize and recognize that it is there and remove whatever obstacles that stand in our way of feeling the warmth, comfort, provision and protection of that ever-present, divine Love.

In the weeks leading up to this current adventure of taking my practice on the road on the each coast of the US for a few months, I had wondered what the “why” was behind it all. I felt inspired and led to follow the inspiration to embark on this journey, but I wrestled to understand why Love was leading me to embrace this nomadic lifestyle and wanted to know the purpose or outcome. During this time, I was supporting a friend who was struggling to understand their purpose in life. And I recalled a conversation where we talked about how our entire purpose whether we are employed or not, or traveling or still, is to learn more about God… learn more about Love and how to express love to our fellow man more selflessness, more generously, more graciously…

Well, as per usual, I am good at seeing how to help others but sometimes less so for myself. Until one evening, I was at church in testimony meeting and someone shared something about their journey and experience that made me realize that the same truth I was sharing with my friend also applied to me, and this journey. And while I know my overall purpose in life… it is the same for this adventure. So, I am daily learning more about God and how that unconditional love of Love provides for each one of us. I get to learn day by day how that shows up for me in the form of home, community, supply, place, and opportunities to be of service. It’s been a lesson in leaning in and trusting the Divine completely and being ok with the unknown.

I’ve found it sometimes a struggle, and sometimes a fun challenge/opportunity to answer the question “where do you live?” Or “where are you visiting from?” And the other day a friend laughed when I was asked “what’s next?” and I answered, “Well I will be in NYC for the weekend…” But at the time, I didn’t know where I would be after that. And my friend seemed kind of in awe of the fact that I only knew where I would for the upcoming weekend.

If I’m honest, there are moments when it weighs on me a lot not knowing what’s next … but then I look back and wonder why I was so concerned, and didn’t trust more, when it all works out in the most beautiful, harmonious way… and always way better than what I could have imagined. So I am really taking to heart Jesus’ words…

That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing?

(Matthew 6:25)

So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.  

(Matthew 6:34)

And of course, that situation turned out like the others… the answer was there just when it was needed. I had a better “home” that I could have hoped for the following weeks… and it just continues to unfold each week, each day in the mossed blessed way. I am so very grateful.

Finding purpose and vocation 

From the Christian Science Perspectives section of the September 30, 2019 issue of the Christian Science Monitor 

When we are willing to go where God, Love, leads us, this opens the way for our lives to unfold in increasingly fulfilling and purposeful ways. 

Mission and purpose – discover yours today!

A podcast with Tony Lobl, Eric Bashor, and Kim Hedge – September 9, 2019 – Sentinel Watch

In this edition of Sentinel Watch, we ask what really constitutes living the life you want to live. Our guests discuss their careers and how listening for God’s guidance has led them on an adventurous and meaningful path that has increasingly clarified and brought into focus their real life purpose. 

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Know the end from the beginning, it’s very good…

kimhedge

Do you wonder what the future holds for you?  Do you every wish you had a crystal ball and could see how it all turns out?  I certainly do sometimes… I think we all do at one time or another…certainly when we’re going through a challenge whether it is trying to figure out what’s next in life – jobs, relationships, location, home…  or dealing with some form of sickness that seems scary and just wanting to know we will be OK…

I’ve heard people say, “I just want “this” (sickness, challenging situation, sense of lack or loss) to go away. I want healing to come… and I just want to know when and how it will all work out.”

I too have experienced this at times…. This morning I was thinking about the statement from the Bible from the book of Isaiah

… to know the end from the beginning[1]…

and that God knows the future, not only because God is the all-knowing, infinite Mind, but because God knows the present, and is always in the eternal now.   This ties in with what is stated in Jeremiah –

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.[2] 

What does it mean to know the end from the beginning?  Well, we know that the Bible tells us in Genesis (which means beginning), that it states “In the beginning God…”[3]in fact, this is the opening line of the whole book, the entire story.  And God create man, and everything else, and states that is all “very good.”[4]  In fact, God doesn’t declare that it is all VERY good, until the last verse of Chapter 1… not until everything was create and all working together harmoniously.  

“And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good…”[5]   

So, I think that because God created man and the universe and it was/is all very good… and because God is All and Eternal and unchanging, doesn’t it stand to reason that the end will also be very good, as will all the middle bits…?  But how?  Well, God is good, and only knows good… and it is just a matter of us waking up and tuning into what God is telling us each moment, that we can experience this goodness for ourselves.  In Malachi it states And in Malachi  –

…prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.[6]  

So the good and the blessings are abundant and constant and consistent and never-ending. As Mary Baker Eddy states in her text Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures,

“God is not moved by the breath of praise to do more than He has already done, nor can the infinite do less than bestow all good, since He is unchanging wisdom and Love.”[7]  

I’m often tempted to think, but what if…?  And when I remember, I try to replace that “what if” with “what is”…  What is true about God, good, and me and my life as the image and likeness, or reflection of God, good.  What is true of God, who is Love, as we learn in the New Testament… and me, who is loved, cherished, adored and cared for unconditionally, as Her beloved child?  

I started thinking about all of this because I was reflecting back on a time when I started watching a TV show… it was a real suspense, thriller, action type of show… it’s one of those shows where it’s almost arbitrary where one episode ends and the next starts because it’s constant action and they just pick up exactly where they leave off and always with a cliff hanger about what’s about to happen next. And because it’s on Netflix, one episode came after another and suddenly a good bit of time had gone by and I got completely sucked in for a little while…  

I find I’m one of those people that gets really into a book or movie or show, so I’m usually more careful and choosy about what I read or watch, because it tends to stick with me a bit. Lately I haven’t really watched this kind of show because I don’t like those images or feelings to linger in my thought afterwards… (I used to love the crime dramas, but I’m more of a Great British Baking Show or World of Dance kinda person now… though every now and then one of those suspense shows will peak my interest and I’ll give it a try for a bit…  

Well, in this case, I found that after watching the show for a little while one night, I ended up dreaming about it and awakening before my alarm the next morning.  I couldn’t shake the desire to see what happens next or find out how it all turns out… I was actually afraid for the main character and her friends… 

But what I wanted even more at that moment was I actually really wanted to just stop thinking about it all together and focus on my day… and focus my thought on God and prayer… but I couldn’t seem to break the mesmerism.  And that’s exactly what it was… mesmerism.  

I realized this was the same kind of mesmerism that had a hold of my thought about a physical challenge that I had been working through.  It seemed like a scary one… and I found myself wanting to know how it was all going to turn out for my life and my health… much like the show.  I was afraid… and sometimes would think about others I had known who had similar symptoms… or what I had read about, seen advertised or even seen in shows I had watched in the past, where it never seemed to turn out very well in the end for the people who had these symptoms.  

Well, to deal with breaking the mesmerism of this silly TV show… I decided to skip to the end.  I read the brief synopsis of the final episode of the season and it said they would reveal who was behind all the evil stuff going on.  So, I watched the first five minutes.  That’s all it took.  I found out who was behind it, realized that of course the good guys would win… and that was the end of it.  The mesmerism was completely broken… shattered, even.  My interest in the show what gone, and I was free.  I was able to focus on my prayers and my daily work. But it got me thinking in a new way… 

What if I knew the end of this physical “suspense drama”?  Would I no longer be afraid?  Would I see it for the unreality that it was?  How could I find out how it ends?  How could I really know…?  And that’s when the verse from Isaiah came to thought.  But I DO know, I reasoned.  Because God is All, unchanging Good… that IS true right now and always… and because God created me, in Her image and likeness, I can only be good, and filled with goodness, right now and always.  And God wants only good for me, provides only good for me, sustains me with that goodness… as a friend once said, “every part of us was created to glorify God”… so there could never be any part of me that is not good, holy, pure, true… not now, not ever.   And with that the mesmerism and fear broke… and I was then better able to pray and hear more clearly the messages God was sending… messages of love… messages that said,

“I love you, I have always loved you, I will always love you, you are my beloved and all will be well, for all IS well.”

[1]The Bible – Isaiah 46:10

[2]The Bible – Jeremiah 29:11

[3]The Bible – Genesis 1:1

[4]The Bible –  Genesis 1:31

[5]Ibid.

[6]The Bible – Malachi 3:10

[7]Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, Mary Baker Eddy p. 2

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Happy National Peanut Butter Day!

kimhedge

In case you didn’t know, today is National Peanut Butter Day in the U.S., and to celebrate I ate peanut butter sandwich.  Why should anyone care about this obscure holiday, you ask…  Well for me it is significant because it is a reminder to pray to know that the world’s children have all they need at every moment. To know that divine Love is meeting their every need, and caring for them.  That as the reflection and image and likeness of their divine Parent, they come with infinite supply of good.

i5Each year on this day I pause to remember this and to pray in this way specifically for the children in Zambia, Malawi and elsewhere, struggling with malnutrition and a seeming lack of supply, and for the organizations such as Every Child Fed (ECF), whereI worked as the Country Director for Zambia, and their partner organization Project Peanut Butter (PPB).  These organizations help supply an enriched peanut butter paste to children who are suffering from severe malnutrition.

When I was embarking on this journey to work to support children in this way, it was not helpful to see the children as lacking anything – food, health, care – but instead to know that each idea of Life, Love, God is whole and complete, coming with its own supply – like an acorn that already includes the leaves, bark, branches and roots of a tree all within itself.   I find it helpful to know that Love is our true source of supply, and that it is constant, consistent, limitless, infinite and eternal…  this is true for everyone… the children in Zambia, as well as US government workers during the shutdown, and anyone else feeling a sense of lack or insecurity.  As Mary Baker Eddy states in her inspired text

Divine Love always has met and always will meet every human need.

She goes on to say, “It is not well to imagine that Jesus demonstrated the divine power to heal only for a select number or for a limited period of time, since to all mankind and in every hour, divine Love supplies all good.”[1]Jesus demonstrated the ever-presence of supply by multiplying the loaves and fishes to feed the multitudes… and there were baskets left over!  (see Matthew 14:13-21)

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But how do we feel and know that our supply will be there when everything points to the contrary… I have found in my experience, that a change in thought can help.  Rather than seeing lack everywhere, we can shift our perspective with gratitude for what we DO have…  Just as in the example of the loaves and fishes, Jesus gave gratitude first… “Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the people.  They all ate and were satisfied…”[2]

kid w rutfHow can we feel that sense of being satisfied with what we already have and grateful for it?   Mrs. Eddy puts it this way,

“Are we really grateful for the good already received? Then we shall avail ourselves of the blessings we have, and thus be fitted to receive more.”[3]

I have found that supply for the next thing doesn’t seem to show up until I get grateful for what I already have.  When I pause and assess what I do have, and give gratitude for all the good that is present in my life, it has a magnifier and multiplier effect… and more good comes in.. like attracts like… so seeing the good already present, attracts more good to come in.  (You can check out a previous blog I wrote on supply and the power of gratitude for more on this idea… )

So today, let’s celebrate all the good… and understand our true source of supply, for ourselves and everyone, especially children… and to that, I will raise a jar of peanut butter!

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*Note: all of the photos I took while working in Malawi and Zambia with ECF and PPB

[1]Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures p. 494

[2]Matthew 14:18

Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures p. 3

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What are you thinking about yourself and others…?

kimhedge

I was recently reflecting on a favorite Bible passage and how to apply it directly to my thoughts and actions… perhaps it will be helpful to you as well as we begin this new year with a fresh start and fresh thinking.

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Jeremiah 29:11

Other Translations say I know the plans I have for you… And they say for welfare, well-being, prosperity, goodness not of evil, harm, calamity, disaster… And they go on to say “to give you a future and a hope.”

I started to think about this wonderful passage from the Bible and how much peace it brings to my thought. I also started to think about how Mary Baker Eddy, in one of my favorite books, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, shared with us the idea that God is infinite, divine Mind… And given that we are created in God’s image and likeness, we reflect that one Mind. 

So we can thereby reason that we can only have thoughts of peace and hope and prosperity and goodness. I started to think about what if we said this to ourselves and others… 

“I know the thoughts I think towards you, thoughts of peace and not of evil… To bring you a sense of hope.”

What if those were the only kind of thoughts we thought about ourselves… Peaceful thoughts filled with goodness that lead to hope rather than the negative loop of self-condemnation or fear and doubt… The constant comparing with others either puffing ourselves up or cutting ourselves down when we compare where we are in life to where others are… The constant criticism or condemning of ourselves and/or others …the endless loop of complaints or pessimistic or negative thinking. 

It seems between like between the media and social media there are many temptations to continuously fill our thoughts with negative or fear-based thoughts either towards ourselves or others.  Thoughts like “we/they are not good enough, not worthy, don’t belong…”

What if we consider our thinking about others friends, peers, siblings, parents, children, coworkers, maybe even or seeming enemies or those on the other side of politics from us… What if instead of thoughts of negativity, harm, disaster, calamity or any form of evil thinking… We thought only thoughts of peace, goodness and hope towards them. Wouldn’t that fill our thought with those ideas thereby uplifting us and our own thinking.  Wouldn’t that fill us and thereby our day and future with hope and goodness and a sense of peace?